23 May 2007

Havent been blogging for quite some time.
Been busy with work and etc...
And the most importance thing is i gt nth to blog about.

I saw some of my friends' blog.
They or the person being emo around. -.-
I know people sometimes will tend to feel down but...
Why everytime the posts seem more emo den the last post.
Why most people would post more emo post den a happy one?

I certainly do not know..
I only know I am happy with what i have now.
A good family, good church, good cellgroup and cgl, good friends, good work.
Althougt sometime i tend to make a few mistakes here and there.
Especially work, when sometime you feel stress and bothered about it.
I love the presence of God.
I will do anythink for Him, serve Him with what i can.

I think i am healed slowly from the hurt from the dismissal from np.
I starting to confess when people ask me why,
Which i will curse and swear.
I know i not perfect, but i trying my best to change for the better.

Everyday is a surprise...
Expect the dragging routine to work.
Not sure if i will working for a long term.
The main problem is it is not flexible for me enough to take off easily,
While others people taking off is just a feat.
Still considering whether shld i continue to work there.

Ciao~

Post again when i got think to write. 08 May 2007

Finally got one day off from my work.
But somehow i feel i wasted it.
Didnt enjoy the break i have.
The thought of working feel better for me.
The feeling of lonliness i feel, as people are busy with their schoolwork.
A simple meal suddenly seem so hard.

haiz..nvm.

They have school yet i dun have.
That the difference that set us apart.

Meet up my poly fren for some k-boxing.
It ok. Not good and not bad.
Just average.
They rush home too cause tml got school.
Wad can i do?

Home loh...
A place for lonliness and four wall that surround you.
Siansation is all i have.

wasted day.

the other side of me - www.wayniho10.blogspot.com 5 May 2007

I had a great time today.
Watched spider-man 3 with wenshan and poh.
Nice movie.
I learned alot from this movie.

Thank wenshan and poh also...
They wait for me to end work yesterday,
And watch movie with me today.
I feel very touched by it.

I needa have some stress out.
Being nag for no reasons everytime.
When i does not have a job...nagging from my aunt.
When i have a job...nagging from my aunt again.
Because i take off?
I am a human pls!!!
I need a break too...
especially so many things bothering me.

I feel like having my own home soon.
A place where i can relax with no people nagging at me.
Being nag the whole time without knowing what i feel.
It suck to the core!!!

Went to Np today...
Still feel very vexed about the place, the lecturers and all the F***ing people there.
I have nth more than all the vulgar language to describe it.
Np suck and i would not want to be part of it anymore.
Lucky i last year emerge using the name of westwood and not Np.
Reprsenting West and not Np.
I never regret it.

suddenly my world seems crashing down again.
www.wayniho10.blogspot.com 3 May 2007

Something make me realise...
Maybe it is best to preserve the kind of relationship we having now.
Not too much...
Not too less.

I dun wish to give her something to bother about...
or to stress about.
It my feeling anyways, let her know does not have any impact or effect.
It is my choice to keep or to say it out.
And my chioce is to keep it.

I would be happy just to see her smile everytime i meet her.
Not trying to be hero or 'wei da'...
I really happy to have the relationship we having now, just friends.
I dun wish to spolit this friendship because of a 'feeling' i have for her.
Althougt sometime i wish too..

father God,
help me get out of the situation i'm in.
Tell me what to do.
Heal me of all my hurts.
In Jesus name,i pray.