I watched finish 'Goong: Wo de ye man wang fei/ Princess hours'. Quite a nice show and it worth the money to get it. It so popular now in Singapore too. A very beautiful and touching love story...nice storyline and very cute actress who i also think quite chio( especially when she let down her long hair)...Lol

Watch soccer shld be a joy to me but watch it at nite feel so lonely...Night make most ppl feel lonely which i nw truely understand why. For my case, I think mayb there is nobody to share the joy together bah..

I getting to understand why i never have anytink go right in my life/ success in anytink. The root to it, Mayb Im too impatient in anytink i do and jump straight into the process. Mayb it is bah, coz everytink that i do...i just dun like the basic and went straight into the 'expert mode' evertink even for soccer.
Need to improve on this weakness of my.

Btw...Im writing this post for a few times le but due to com error i had to rewrite again. -.-" Cause i dun wanna wait till nxt morning den write as i will forgot and being lazy to write at tt time.
below is the lyric of one of my most fav songs in Goong but i just cant the songs...it is one of the most sad and emo songs too...


Saranghamnida nan nan sranghamnida.
( Love you...I...I love you.)
Geudaeye bae oon manhgo manheun manldeul joonge.
( This is what I learned from you, Out of all words and phrases in the world.)
Eemalhana ibboureut chouroum na.
( This has become my favorite phrase.)
Joongoulgourimnida honja babo chouroum.
( Muttering to myself...Like a fool alone.)

Mianhamnida cham, cham mianhamnida.
( I'm sorry...I am sorry.)
Dwi neujeun ee malkkaji mianhajiman.
( I'm sorry for these words that are too late.)
Youmchi oubsi geudael gidarimnida.
( I wait for you without any pride.)
Haengyou naejreun doraolgga.
( Will you return tomorrow by chance?)

ee maum..kkeutnae geudaen molla.
( This heart...even if it's ended, we won't know.)
Olsu oubsoudo.
( Even if you can't come..)
Geudaega byounhae douneun.
( Even if you've changed..)
Nan anirado.
( Even if it's not me..)
Boollou bogo...dasi boollou bomnida.
( I call out...call out again.)
Aengmoosae chouroum geudae eereum.
( Like a parrot, I call out your name...)
Guedae sarangman irouhge.
(And your love, like this.) I think i finally enlighted le bah...Those disappointment, tireness, sadness. After days of suffer troubled times, feeling down...even given the thought of giving up the way wif HIM, He ask me to 'hang on' which at first i tot is wad i thinking to myself nia. But He told me again to 'hang on' even in my dream...and flash bek all the times i had in church and all the sermon i learn. It let me know why wad i always ask nv come true.

The element i lack to haf wad i wan, wad i desire most. It to be mentally healthy bah...knowing my own situation right nw, having it would be more painful bah. I dun wanna anybody get hurt or the person get hurt by stupid thing althougt sometimes quarrel is unpreventable. I dun wanna lyk any of my fren jus lyk tt does it lyk a ply ply mood and hurt anybody bcoz of his own personal attiude problems. i dun wanna use force and in the end everybody oso get hurt. i just wanna use my own strgenth to haf it, enjoy and precious it and most imptly let everything go by faith bah.

I think in w355, i am the weakest link bah. It is nt bcoz i am new or wad bah...but i jus veri easily shaken by my emotions bah. Trying to hard to get something which nt belong to me end up hurting myself. I am the one who always feel inferior abt myself, the one who moodswing among guys is 2nd the worst, the one who quite useless, the one who nt so spiritual YET.

The guy out there who nv think abt ownself and jus pointing other ppl faults. The guy who dun enjoy big crowd example combined cell. The guy who dun lyk to write b'dae card coz he dunno wad to write. The guy who everytym sae ' sian,Sian and SIAN'. lastly, one of the most boring guys u can find on earth.

So much to change, so little time.
Having faith in HIM. Think alot these days...doing some reflection abt myself and others think. The Most important thing i being thinking is friends.

What are friends for? What they mean to u?

Friends is an important part in our life as we have lots of friends(for some of us). We spend all the happy and sad times together...But it is realli a case as wad we all say? If yes, why most of the time we cant find someone to tok to when we are troubled. The feeling to share burden but no one there and when it can be shared, you dun feel lyk it lei and putting it all inside you. Happy moment spend together is gd enough and troubled time/ sad moment deal it alone? Is it realli lyk tt, if not why usually it gone tt way...

Are friends means to being used? Ask him/her keep u company when u lonely...and put him aside when u gt plan to do. Ask frm him a favour to send you songs when u want one and hardly tok to you if nt a case. Being friend wif him/her just for the fun coz he/she is easily bullied.

Is there realli sometink called true friend?

Why life is so sad?
Why we need to gone througt so much, suffer so much?
Why Good thing nv happened for gd people?
Tired of this, realli veri tired le

How i wish life is simple and easy. Just lie down a field and enjoy the sky, the scenary, the tree, the grass and... Just some veri simple request yet so hard to accomplish. Suddenly have the urge to learn guitar or paino...Having a huge interest in composing song nwadae. I find composing songs quite interesting lei and most of all, it is your own creation going by your own style and genre. Think i can 'heng'(try?sing?agaration of the tune and meldoy) out abit...which some i tink it quite nice but most importantly is i cannt remamber any of it. LOL!!!

After saying so much, i still have doubt over myself ah...and i veri shy lei. Due to this shyness of my, it prevent the Great Chua Tian Long to accomplish many great things ah. As i can say that i not a veri confident person and i am one that veri concern abt ppl opinion and critcism.

Doing a personality test ben ask me to do...the most surprising thing is nt that it say i am extrovant but is having a special talent for bringing out the best in others and the ability to make people do exactly what they want them to do -.-"

I know that nt veri things it stated is true or can be believe but it is nt the first time i kana this type of result...no matter wad personality i do, i would surely gt this ability to bring the best out of people. Which i dunno why? i dun even seem tt i have convincion in my speaking and hw do the hell i bring out the best in people?

Have a chat wif one of my army fren todae. suddenly tok abt maturity...which i dun think i gt enough bah. coz i think i still nt ba...dunno hw to describe but roughly can gauge ba. Remove the music on my blog...seem kind of irritating. School start this week, but due to it the first week...it seem kind of slack and end often end early. -.-"

Kind of pissed when i read finish 1 of my 'fren' entry. 'What are friends for?', this is the title of his stupid entry which later part bad-wording his close frenz...and all of this due to thy nv spend time wif him. WTF? I know friendship is bulid with quality time spend but wad he say is abit over. Saying gd thing abt you when your on good term and bad-mouthing you when your nv meet or having querral. This is on the surface for most of them bah...some other being easliy bullied would suffer more coz he would 'pit-pointed' you and wadever you do is wrong. This is wad i being througt for abt 4 yrs bah.. -.-"

Wondering wad the probs wif him? Being so arrogant, 'mu zhong wu ren' and disrespectful...i realli wonder hw i make fren wif him. Consider himself as christian without gg svc and worse still bad-mouthing the church he saying he in...which is CHC lar !!! I think i will stop here, if nt i will be the one bad-mouthing ppl too..

I am thinking wad blog is useful this few days? i doubt so ppl will read finish any of the entry...coz part of it i noe is boring. Two ways to noe ppl visited your blog would be 1. hit-counter, which is no use to me coz it seem tt i am the one who increase the no. den others so i remove it, and 2. tagboard, but it seem too nobody entry into this 'holy' land of my coz it seem so empty too. Mayb the only thing tt blog is being useful to me is as a tool to vent my feeling bah..but still nt everytink can being shared or tt i dun wanna share.

TV time, update again when i feel like it bah coz it still so blank. life is boring without aims, dream and wadever u can think so...and tt wad i suffering right nw -.-

trying to find somthing to spend my time away but nth for me to do or i nt interested in...lappy nw seem so useless when i haf it but so impt to me when dun haf one. Any games on both com and playstation has no effect on me, i nv addicited to any games before coz it seem bored plying a long time...tt even included my fav. soccer game !!!

Msn seem stupid coz firstly is no ppl online or ppl tt i chat often is busy due to schoolwork and exams, secondly is i am a bad communicator ba...mayb due to my character which seem quite cold, the first word i come out with is ' SIAN !!! ' (dun u all agree?). And trying to add more sugar doesn't haf any effect coz is way too salty liao (sian sound similar to salty in chinese). So it seem Msn is useless to me too...

Blogging oso doesnt mean much use oso...although some time is spend away when blogging but wad can blog from such a boring life and nth significant to blog it down. I can't always blog 'sian, Sian, SIAN !!!' right? it feel so stupid to do that, even others will get bored by reading it.

Think it time to do some reflection, thinking of wad to do, wad went wrong, wad to improve, hw to improve and all those tiny little thing tt can make life more fruitful. Instead of sian here sian there and everybody oso feel sian by it...result in death due to drowning in the salty world.

Can a lazy man like man do it? Doubt so...but nothing is impossible and impossible is nothing. So I Must believe, I Still Believe and I Believe i can do it !!! In the end, you would nv know wad the outcome without trying mah...but anyway just dont push to hard can liao and just try my best =D

Wad shld i do first aft i sae so much? Ohya...A man without dreams cannt sucess rite? I know wad i shld do liao...went to slp so that i can haf dreams and so i would know wad is my Dreams. LOL...

Nite Nite... Dun Judge A Person On It Cover !!! coz u dunno hw is he on the inside...wad he tinking, feel, plan, and everytink.

People mayb happy in fornt of others but haf a differ feeling inside them...Or trying to do smtink tt other dunno. U mayb thinking of one of these guys nw bah...but u mayb dunno who i mention or tinking nw.

I wonder why ? Some people jus dun cherish people ard them when they haf one, or trying to get love everywhere but some quiet one jus sit there doing admiration. 'Bad' boys win the race while 'nice' guys is being cast aside, 'Bad' boys know hw to firth while 'nice' guys jus nt gd at words and being 'boring'. Isit being 'Bad' so good ?

Another example, you mayb get along wif a Person a long time but u mayb still dunno wad tis Person thinking bah or simple put you dun understand tis Person. coz mayb tis Person tink no one understand him/her bah...thus dun dare to open up tis Person's feeling. Mayb wad tis Person hiding may shock you bah.

This lead me thinking of wad usually gd frens will ask each others or mayb only my last time fren and i bah ( no longer together bcoz of sometink and a 3 letter word, CHC ) when we get into love topic.

Who will u spend the most time wif ? Girlfriend or Good friend ?
There is no balance here coz surely u will spend most of the time wif one of them de. Either one, i tink i will go solo bah...jus lyk the song playing nw '一个人流浪' coz i tink i dun haf both bah.

飞轮海 - 一个人流浪

没人了解
才选择隔绝这世界
有点疲倦
已决裂的信念

白色球鞋
走不回喧闹的海边
月光营火
照亮许多笑脸

疯狂画面停留在眼前
默契却渐行渐远
我们约好闯荡的那片天
我一个人向前

我流浪在拥挤的从前
复习一页页黑白的空荡夏天
呆坐在热闹的路边
啤酒没变甜
却少了傻得很认真的心愿

我流浪在孤单的边缘
怀念挥霍著笑声的耀眼蓝天
听著那熟悉的音乐
只剩下琴弦
希望让时间回到误解那天

能有机会说声抱歉 I like this song sia...nice song, sad story. Like the lyrics veri much, quite meaningful (to me ah).

think i gt nth to blog le bah...nth to update coz nth seem special this few weeks.

爱失控 - Energy

时间
一分一秒被偷走
所谓的永久
被曾经取代后
变成恶魔
手里握着多余的温柔
独自反复思索
收藏保留
随风飞走
说来轻松

自由
是否会比较好过
原来没有
成全的背后总有
痛苦在招手
记忆停留在最初时候
星光已不再闪烁
无话可说
继续走
还是朋友

让你走
我的爱失控
藏在幸福快乐的背后
是我
逃避退缩
放开手
对爱不再有奢求
是非对错不想再多说
眼神交会时候
出卖承诺
泪在留

想通
躲在黑暗的出口
难以捉摸
是缘份的作用
导致失控
还是孤独一时的冲动
抹去爱情轮廓
故事内容
谁补充
安静的尘封

世界的旋律因你而转动
就算再失控
落空
音符交织感动
就够

让你走
我不再是我
感受不到心跳的触碰
占有
转眼成空
放开手
对爱不再有奢求
徘徊梦中模糊脸孔
遗留在角落
不再轻易地经过