Alone in Tokyo

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

getting better le...but still seem lost on my life lei

Donno wad i am doin ah...nt interested in anytink or even toking oso...mayb test coming so veri de stress but i seem relax lei...complicated ah!!!

my life seem so dull...agrhh!! nth meaningful lor...skl oso no life de..com oso nth use oni wait fer ppl to scold me irritating nia...ps2 so boring nth new to ply..soccer oso getting tired of it liao..almost lost interest in everytink..my frens call me out fer soccer two times i oso nv go le..lazy ah..

i heard tis song 'yu ren' an 'ai mei' tis few dae...one veri happy song sae abt finally u wait tt person and luv her/him whole-heartedly...the other is abt one-side luv make u suffer alot...haiz!! donno why i always tis stupid de...diao..mayb shld giv up hope bah..

ltr gg meet cgm fer movie...tis week pok le ah..my jersey $2o,i watch one movie b4 le $15 gone,ltr one more $15 gone again..transport fare at least $30 tis week..haven plus my makan money i oreadi over my weekly budget le..haiz!!

Nv done anytink rite in my life!!!

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Sunday, May 28, 2006

fer the bad news ah...haiz.. sad ah..

todae went to fellowship aft my phototaking session..still in high spirit coz final achive smth gt into final and my name is in the bulletin..but aft tt when we went hm haiz..tink start to happen

sae the truth..actually i tinking of wad to take to went hm den aaron and wenshan told me to acc her bek hm..den i anytink loh haf-hearted coz i noe smth will happen..sure enough when she noe abt it her face is those unwilling de..veri sad lor and oso veri dulan...on the bus we hardly tok to each other althought we sit face to face to each other...mayb both of us were tired bah..or i still don dare to tok to her...but wad i noe tt during tt tym we are jus stranger to each other..

she still keeping a distance frm me..lyk i am a monster and i still donno abt wad to tok to her coz she jus ans fer the sake of answering which i strongly feel it frm her and her body language..haiz!! oso donno wad to sae liao...sad plus dulan plus disappoinment plus many tink in my heart ah...

anna on fri oso ask she will support me or sen more on fri when we gg bek hm..i nv ans her but tink througt it she will definalty support sen more de loh..coz she last tym oso lyk sen before tt dae make me abit sad liao lor but nv tink of it much den todae see her lyk tt more donno wad to sae ah...

sometym realli feel veri tired abt it loh..feel lyk giving up..but it is easy to say than do it..she affect me so much loh..even wenshan alway lyk tt sae to me...lol !!! waiting fer so long le..one positive result oso bo..oni getting more bad result donno is i stupid or too faithful..haiz..

btw my b'dae coming le for those who reading..don forget my present ah..areadi veri sad le ah...if no ppl celebrate hor i oso nth to sae le ah...lol !!! waiting for tis dae loh..to have b'dae wish den mayb b'dae wish will come true den haf a happy ever after ending..haha

write till wan to cry liao ah...i tink i gg to stop here if nt i will realli cry le..lol !!! update ur when i free

ciao !!!

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Saturday, May 27, 2006

one week nv blog le..i gt gd news and bad news but i tink my bad news is so much longer loh.so i tink i will put the bad news in another post...

tis week erm..gt sick for almost the whole week..but oni go consult doctor on tue den gt two dae MC which mean i can don go skl fer two dae especially thur which is IS classes..but hor in e end kana letter tt i gt low attendence fer IS and could be debarred if i miss somemore =s...sian!!!

but the funny tink is tt during i am on MC which mean i sick...i go out on these two daes which my mum oso sae me 'tis is wad u call sick'...lol.when to xbox challange..which i gt into finals..so shiok at least gt $50 dollar nike vouchers which i can buy my fav. nike tinky...so excited loh..

thur went to ply bowling..so fun loh wif my fren..sen ,alwyn,fir..aft went to watch da vinci code wif my cgm..the movie quite nice ah..inspire by the role play by tom hank loh..so celver noe so many code and symbol which wad thy mean...i tink if i am lyk him i veri happy le loh..so mus work harder ah..lol

i tink tt all the gd tink le loh..gg fer the bad news liao (blog above)

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Monday, May 22, 2006

Veri sick le...since ytd gt fever and my throat veri pain sia..=s worse still donno hw my com kana virus siak everytym tis tink pop-up so sian lor...i uninstall le but nt use -.-" lucky still can run other tink lyk msn if nt life would be boring ...

the tink tt always pop-up when i start windows...

coz of my sickness, i gt veri tired durin my classes todae almost slp most of them and during break oso but wad i found is i am nt alone...lolx

my other frens oso felt sleepy during our break during one of our break and we slp together...

when i am sleeping...=s

i gt company lei..

nt three of us nia but five...lolx

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Saturday, May 20, 2006

ytd damn sleepy so nv blog..ytd mah nth much happen..oni cg change venue nia but hor..at there make me abit pek chey coz i find the ppl there veri noise..mayb i gt nt enough slp bah so get irritated easily...

after cg,most of them went hm..oni left a few of us go fellowship nia..i nv eat coz no money liao but stay there eat wind lor..i oso did nt tok much oni tt Sakura-chan gt tok to me den i tok abit nia..if nt i oso don wanna care her much =s

todae finally gt my new phone le..so shiok!!but hor the sad part is i wan to put songs in it but i need to charge till tml morning and tml morning i need to go svc..so no tym lor oso donno wad to do..sian!! ply finish WE10 liao..damn long coz i put 15 mins one hlf..ply till so sian liao..i tink i gonna slp soon if nt tml cannt wake up..

ciao!!!

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Friday, May 19, 2006

todae nv went to skl...coz overslpt =s coz ytd watch Arsenal vs. Barcelona..Barcelona win 2-0 great play by them by i think arsenal shld have win oni to let down by a stupid referee..

ytd damn angry siak..stupid sakura!!Don care her anymore...make me angry oni siak her.wad happen is tis..ytd rachel tell me tt sakura finding songs..den ask she nv find me lei i sae no..if rachel lyk tt sae mean tt she nw finding wad den tell me loh..cannt be a yr ago mah rite? so i go tok to her loh..askin her if she findin songs and the ans is NO..tis make me damn angry siak..it is so clear tt is she avoidin me loh..if she realli findin song and don wan me to hlp..haiz..treat her so gd oso no use..i just tranparent in her eyes...wad de loh...hack her liao

bcoz todae nv go skl den go bowling wif sen and alwyn...sen sure win de lor he veri pro one de siak..so only i and alwyn fight nia..we ply three games..first game i win in the last round by 2 pts...second game i fall veri deep below oni gt 28pts for 10 rounds siak...so is 1-1 between me and alwyn loh..so third game is the decider and in rounds he gt a strike and 7..so i tink i lose liao but den i oso gt strike and 7 and before tt i win by 1 pts so in the end i win by 1 pts and win it by 2-1..lolx

i always catch up and do my best in e last mins de..so donno why..lolx Mayb my love life oso will go lyk tt bah..but so far i did badly in tis subject siak..haha gt go for many remedial clz by my fren liao still no use...haiz!! lyk my physic lyk tt nv pass b4 de...-.-"

Buy WE10 liao..veri shiok!!so nice to play ahh...if tml no skl i sure ply till morning de...gg to slp le ah...bye

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

going to have IWD ltr...sian =s sure "What is internet ?" again...lol

aft tt went hm for a rest first before gg sen hse...ask me to go early to go shoppin for food for e match..ya tonite gt the biggest match of all..Barcelona vs. Arsenal

scare fall asleep during the match ah...coz i oni gt 4 hrs of slp todae..mayb can have a nap during the lesson...lolx Suddenly tinking of sakura-chan...oso donno why =s

try to foucs on other tink le..but my mind just drift away..wan to tok to her but oso donno wad to tok abt...stupid rite being so faithful still don have a happily ever after ending..but i dont mind ah

many say i didnt try hw to noe...but everytym i see even with all my confidence will oso bought down to earth...try many tym le but still no use...

ytd saw the trailer of sg idol on ch 5 liao...it is the 5th dae de..wondering monday it is me on tt tv ornt -.-" hope nt bah...quite paiseh lei...although i lyk to perform but still gt tt stage fright..lolx

gt the notice todae i will finish clz on 4 tis fri...sian!!

aft tt i tink i gg cg stright...coz at cityhall ahh so far lor waste my fare siak...sian!!

i tink i gg to join song composing club nxt week..but i heard tt u need to sing coz it an interview =s...but the gd news is tt sure can go in de..gg to prove tt susan wrong.Chicken!! sae me cannt make it... =@

ok lar...tell ur more abt the tink tml..

ciao!!

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2 dae nv blog liao...busy doing my blog tinky..still feel lyk nt complete lei =s oso went to aaron hse to hlp him wif his blog..in e end lyk being make up a mess lyk tt..lolx

tml gg to sen hse to watch champ leauge final...waiting for it two attacking team sure nice to watch de plus wif sen sure alot of crap..waiting for it

hehe...

i oso can start counting down for my b'dae liao ah...oni abt 1 mth away waiting for my new phone and my wishes to come...i noe those wishes is almost immpossible but wif God everytink is possible...lolx

chat alot wif aaron todae...he told me tt sakura seem to haf a distance wif him again..haiz tt sakura-chan everytym lyk tt de..

i oso kana loh..for 4 yrs liao nv had a real conversation before..so sad hor!!

somtym find myslef abit stupid..wait for her so long liao still no result..haiz!! wondering isit stupid to wait for her so long..lyk 3 yr liao..in the end wad i get is oni faithful frm other ppl mouth...frm her still the same distance and attitude toward me...

smtym wonder why gal lyk bad boy tt hurt them den those who will faithful stay by her de...thy will sure sae those faithful one is boring but thy didnt giv them a chance hw can thy noe thy are boring...faithful guy oso can be romantic or wad so ever to them lor...plus thy surely will stay faithful toward u lor tt nt gd enough meh...

bek to sakura-chan...she don seem to lyk me at all siak frm wad i observe to nw smtym i realli is invisiable in her eyes..but thax God ah..nw getting better le but still gt some prob ah..

donno why oso ah..nw i start to tok better le..can tok to everyone else quite well but everytym wanted to tok to her..i lost of word..and she lyk shutting me up lyk tt ans is lyk trying to end it lyk tt..nw don wanna tok to her too much lei..don wanna kana irritating again

veri hurt u noe :'( ...

tml need to wake up by 7 nw areadi 3 liao...die ah oni gt 4 hrs of slp...

ok lar...

ciao...

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Monday, May 15, 2006

changing my song again =s...for the third tym in tis week liao lolx....

starting to get to lyk tis blog veri much le...coz oni a few ppl will visit nia due to my popularity wif ppl.So it mean tt i can write wad my heart most in tis site...but nt those racist one ahh..kana caught mampos ah...haha.saying abt my popularity,went to church todae notice tis part till nw when Pas. Phil intro his book on leadership...most leader don have the ppl skill..ppl skill to get along wif ppl...tis two word make a impact in my heart..

i can admit tt i am quite introvert...but i can chat alot wif ppl i noe well.But realli i realli have poor ppl skill bah..i don make fren in an instant one coz i tink i tying myself to protect myself frm getting the wrong party to be fren bah.And oso if i have gd ppl skill...the gal i lyk wont keep a distance frm me liao..haiz!! Smtym she realli make me tink tt am i tt scary tt she avioding all the time...it is so obvious loh even blind man oso can feel it. Mayb i shld get tt book to improve my ppl skill and leadership skill bah..lolx Coz toking abt leadership,everytym i took a test abt personality skill sure gt leadership quality in it de..-.-" wonder which part of me gt the leadership part...i lyk nt lead before coz i oni follow nia..

realli lyk my tis blog song liao...i don easily lyk eng song de..i tink tt tis song can describe my feeling..especially some part of it lyk...

Those simple words hit so hard

they turned my whole world upside down

girl you caught me completely off guard

on that night you said to me

I just don’t love you no more

haiz...don tink abt those unhappy tink le..mus have faith lyk wad Pas. Phil sae nth is immpossible...haha I realli wan it to happen or just let me go loh..for so many yrs le still gt no ans..tinking abt jan in tis yr..saw wad winson n her chat abt..both jking ard but when sen(wad we usually call him) ask her why she didint giv me a chance..she sae she gt but i start wondering it doesnt seem lyk loh...she being avioding in skl,even nw in church oso..everytym tok to her is lyk a wall blocking between us...though nw is much better den last tym le

Todae gt to celebrate M'dae again...tis tym gt shark fin to eat so shiok!! but too many ppl in one hse plus so many children hor...abit fan ahh..lolx Wish my mother a happy mothers' day...even though we quarrel most of e tym but she realli is a gd mother...get me wan i needed she could loh so touching...but i nv thax her before ah took it for granted haha...she gg to get me a new phone in Jun loh so happy siak..haha..nw thax her lyk abit too late hor..oso veri mushy lei for a guy to sae tis tink..lolx

quite late le ah...but still cant slp coz i jus woke up haha but i tink i have nth to sae anymore..tink tml will write again

Ciao!!!

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

todae went every other sat went to church to praise God...notice that my faith lvl went abit higher le..lolx On the train hm rach, anna,aaron,ben and i chat alots of tink especially abt relationship..we sae tt usually a couple first three months will be their 'honeymoon period',aft 3 mth both of them will show out a few of their true colour den if thy quarrel den tt is the peroid of break patch break patch liao..

lucky tis blog nt so many ppl will see de i tink...so i can put my personal tink here without ppl noeing much abit it..lolx =D Aaron sae tt todae BB wan to tok to wenshan mean gt smth trouble her liao..ask me go hm msg her ask her wad happen..i oso noe abt it ahh but lyk no faith to do it lor..nt tt i don wanna to concern her but she treat lyk a total stranger smtym de..although it is better then last tym liao but still can feel tt she tryin to keep a distance frm me and i oso don wanna get to close to her liao..always lyk tt de lor so i oso donno le..still lyk her ahh but oso donno wad to do...let evertink go by faith bah...

just heard a car accident happen..the road beside my hse nia...although nt a human being knock down but a dog oso ver sad lor... i heard the dog cry veri loudly den the sound went off liao..find it has smth wrong liao den go check it out but it too late, the dog die le...veri sad lor hw can the driver lyk tt..a dog oso a life lor hit liao and run away..haiz :'(

i oso lyk dogs de..oni find tt supporting a dog and take care of it look troublesome den i don wan have a dog...plus i cannt took care of myself properly liao hw can i take care of a dogs well..haha..so saw tis accident oso veri sad ah..poor dog becom stray dog liao still die in tis manner..haiz

tink i gonna slp liao...tml need to wake up early to go extra svc aft tt still need to go do project so need a gd rest...ciao!!! update to u abt tml...

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celebrate Mothers' Day,went to eat tim sum(donno spell rite ornt) at west mall...the food there quite ok lar but i find it veri salty lei = s...after tt went to walk walk ard..i saw a handphone i lyk de liao askin my mum to get it fer me on my b'dae which is nxt mth..hehe =D it is sony ericsson w810i(i always lyk sony ericsson phone)plus tis phone is black in colour wif aabit orange one...both my fav. colour lolx..

meet Aaron ard 5.30pm at je ltr...went to church todae coz gt Pas. Phil conference..on the way there,tok alot wif aaron frm him found out tt many ppl tot i lyk rachel ng..-.-"

wondering which part of me show tt i lyk her siak...if sae chat wif her oso bcoz i gt nth better to do lor = s..i oso chat wif other ppl mah..haiz..

btw wad Pas. Phil peach todae make me tink alot...mayb i realli shld start praying more coz usually i pray veri short de...lolx and i shld lift my burden back to God bah...too many prob le..haiz...quite late le ahh...tink i shld b slppin liao

ciao!!!

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Doing tis whole dae le...donno nice anot?= s Using whole day to figure out the HTML coz still noob in tis area ahh...i quite free nw coz my hm tv spolit fer few dae liao oni todae den go repair.

Todae gt tt IS clz...i don lyk tis module ahh feel lyk pon ten but in the end still gt go...coz gt tt 2 mins specche but priase God ahh..gt my fav. topic 'sports' actually gt it last week nv expect to get it again..in the morning still wondering if i gt the topic 'sports' again wad shld i do and tink of it liao.

With tt topic i speak it with ease..i tink i am the one tt tok the longest but i forget abt the intro and concludsion ahh...lolx = s

Nxt week IS clz still need to do grp presentation...but all my team member are frm differ courses de make it hard fer us to do the presentation..so free nw oso donno wad to do.

orh!! my naruto finish le...can watch liao.At least can spend hlf an hr away...

Ciao!!!

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