8 April 2007

I had a sleepless night.
Being thinking alot after so many things happened.
Scold alot of vulgarities when i saw flashes of BE director on my mind.
Quite emo this few days, i think i just need time for myself to clear my mind.
Easter Drama has been great!!!
What shock my most is that i saw marklin in the play,
Which mean i could have been in it if i join.
Wasted!!!

I feel that my confidence is getting lower, althougt i does not show it..
So is my self-esteem.
I do not dare to speak to the person eyes to eyes anymore..
Scare that sending the wrong msg would kill !!
Afraid that rumour would spread and distance between us draw further..
I do want to experience that again.
Really had a bad experience after that...
And that really hurt!!

Confused.