I think i finally enlighted le bah...Those disappointment, tireness, sadness. After days of suffer troubled times, feeling down...even given the thought of giving up the way wif HIM, He ask me to 'hang on' which at first i tot is wad i thinking to myself nia. But He told me again to 'hang on' even in my dream...and flash bek all the times i had in church and all the sermon i learn. It let me know why wad i always ask nv come true.

The element i lack to haf wad i wan, wad i desire most. It to be mentally healthy bah...knowing my own situation right nw, having it would be more painful bah. I dun wanna anybody get hurt or the person get hurt by stupid thing althougt sometimes quarrel is unpreventable. I dun wanna lyk any of my fren jus lyk tt does it lyk a ply ply mood and hurt anybody bcoz of his own personal attiude problems. i dun wanna use force and in the end everybody oso get hurt. i just wanna use my own strgenth to haf it, enjoy and precious it and most imptly let everything go by faith bah.

I think in w355, i am the weakest link bah. It is nt bcoz i am new or wad bah...but i jus veri easily shaken by my emotions bah. Trying to hard to get something which nt belong to me end up hurting myself. I am the one who always feel inferior abt myself, the one who moodswing among guys is 2nd the worst, the one who quite useless, the one who nt so spiritual YET.

The guy out there who nv think abt ownself and jus pointing other ppl faults. The guy who dun enjoy big crowd example combined cell. The guy who dun lyk to write b'dae card coz he dunno wad to write. The guy who everytym sae ' sian,Sian and SIAN'. lastly, one of the most boring guys u can find on earth.

So much to change, so little time.
Having faith in HIM.