Don blame me on getting emotion all wad..but i realli veri sad nw fer all the tink gg ard me :'(
if u noe me well u noe tt i am a veri emotional/sensitive person bah..even ppl sae smth abt me nt on purpose i will take it veri seriously..

althougt i am quite a gd fren to others but most of them take it fer granted and end up bully,despised or make fun of me..haiz!! which i cant stand it and broke off wif many of them..still wondering who fault isit?? =s

wonder why i haf to suffer so much..even thought nt lyk those in the africa or wad but i realli struggle alot wif myself..first i nv get anytink rite in my life bah,i can consider myself 'nerd' bah..which my fren oso sae me lost in touch wif the world..donno wad to do in which tym...cannt do well in anytink i wan to..

i remember gt one tym pas kong preach abt everybdy haf a weakness..i tink my is my emotion bah..or more specify 'LOVE'..mayb it is wad i lack since small bah..coz i gt one period of my time where i stay wif my aunt due to my dad could nt support us..getting scolding and kaning there most of the tym..need to hlp them wif there shop and study doin all those stuff without any plyin tym n nt enough slp...oso being show biased as my bro n cousin gt all those gd tinks wif me gettin nth..but i mus thank them fer me learn nt to be lyk them if i haf children..

even nw i don feel much care or concern frm my fren..frm all i close wif most of them jus add salt to my pain/hurt..but wad i desire most is mayb a relatioship bah..but nth gone the right way..coz i noe i nt handsome and nt rich and nt tall oso...oreadi fail in much of those quality in wad gal wan..i oni gt mayb personality bah..which ppl mus understand...i lyk her or i luv her but she tt kind of gal which i oso gt nth to sae..donno wad shld i do gettin hurt so many tym le..but i jus keep waitin wishing mayb a miracle will happen..but seem lyk nth progressing and she still siam away frm me..i noe tt she don lyk me but keepin a distance frm me jus add salt into my wound..

it would be a minor case if oni tt happen..i realli donno wad i gd at or speciallise in...i noe tt i don ply soccer well..which wad my fren told me..i jus to improve but oso no progress..in other areas of my life oso..i would nv success in anytink..even to sae in WE challenge althougt i create and score our goal but i noe tt if nt bcoz of winson i would nv get into the final...i nt the person tt ppl would remind me of of anytink bah...or shld i sae i'm useless nv get anytink rite in my life

sometime wonder why i am in tis earth to suffer so much..i could nt be born lor...in case ur donno..i am here coz jus bcoz my parent 'shotgun marriage'..my mum even sae tt if nt my dad's mum/my grandma noe it..she would haf aborted me..if realli tt is the case,i tink i would more relieve bah..getting realli tired of tis world..sometym realli tink tt if i die it would b better fer me..since i am a nobody..no one would remember me...i noe tt God is by my side but those hurt jus nv heal and it went deeper..jus lyk my b'dae which i spent most of it alone and it is nt happi b'dae but a sad one..

i donno hw many of ur are reading my blog but don blame me on gettin negative or wad..i oso try to look on the positive side before but it alway turn negative too..tink tt i nt worthy in everytink of my life bah...jus lyk my fav. anima 'naruto' the character naruto and garra which are loner which many ppl withdrawn frm them and dislike them as thy haf monster in them..i lyk them lacking wad a man needed most LOVE..