jus gt tis song..gt a veri deep impression on tis song..i heard it first frm adraino's blog..so i introduce to ur ah..another cao ge's song..quite a nice song coz frm cao ge mah..lolx !!
but when u see the lyrics..actually is a veri veri sad story..jus lyk wad i experience but tis is no wad i feeling nw ah...don get it wrong..haha !!!

and if u tot tis song is wad i nw feeling toward her or wad..sry ah !!! i can nw clearly stated tt i don lyk her anymore..aft so many tinky tt happened..so plz don make fun of me anymore or i will get nasty..

hmm...oh ya !!! nv slp tio fer 2 nite liao coz soccer plus todae still went till penalty siak..going to get sick soon..argh !!! gg to prepare fer skling liao..if ur wan the song jus ask frm me..hehee

realli happy tt when i say my tagboard feel empty..den go all go spam it..haha !!! thank God for all of ur ah..althougt some of ur i somtime make me pek chey but i still cherish everytime we having together...but still abit dissappointed ah..see everybody blog gt a four letter four there but i don haf...tink she too scare too read bah..lyk wad aaron jk on fri..she rather sit wif darius den wif me..haiz !!! realli is bwg ah...nvm bah..since she want to lyk tt i oso gt no chioce ah oso cannt sad sad everyday mah...rite? lolx !!!

i still haf my band of brothers which we go suan ppl and jk ard everytym..every week we lyk having fun together lor which make other cell envy...which i heard tt the mp3 guy frm w292 lyk wanted to join our cell..coz we are a grp of funing ppl

sry everybody fer making ur so sad ,dissappointed and angry fer the last post..i realli don mean it excluded one person..sry abt tt :'(

but i realli those type of gt new fren forget old fren de ppl lor..this still ok ah PMS or attitude wit me somemore...cannt tahan ah blow to top liao...giv me tis type of attitude somemore u realli see the 'dark' side of me le...lolx!!

Todae superman event was fun..but seem abit lost bcoz the drama part !! nv took any photo of it...haiz!! we all chat alot of funny tinks lor..i kana quite alot coz ytd suan aaron too much..aft tt most of them went hm and other went to ply pool..i still the losing side..haiz !! maosen veri pro lor..nth to sae ah..

most of us chat jus nw...veri funny confernce..feeling the guy in our cell getting realli close together le..coz it will be the first time we all meeting tml to go svc together...hahah

ok lar..tink i gonna watch soccer le coz i cannt slp...haiz!!

ytd had a fun dae at sentosa..it is a cg outing,onli 9 of us went but it look lyk oni 7 of us.Coz we gt two person who everytime join the another cell there..ya there is another cell gg wif us W292 under bro joshua..we had a telematch and of course we win ah..jus sse the energy lvl u know liao

nt sae i want to suan them ah..althougt thy are younger than us but thy energy lvl lyk older than us sia..everything oso nt enthu de..nt sporting at all oni the small boy in their cell..haiz !!! den tt stupid Anna blame us fer nt wanting to ply captain ball..wad de lor.Den nvm..we ply ourselves ah..had lots of fun but durning 5 le..when the other cell want to go bek hm..Anna come and rush us bek oso coz she want to go bek wif em lor..gt abit unhappy abt it ah but nv sae nia...

nv get to watch those world cup match ytd..coz too tired le but watch the replay.Wad siak!! don lyk ghana lor..by luck and ref 's cock decision to win de..letting my poor czech to went out..wad de.. =@ jus saw susan blog more angry... ask her go sentosa cannt go celebrate fren b'dae..plus somemore we ask her long tym ago lor..thy oni ask her lyk ytd nia..if u see me don disture me ah or u sure kana frm me de...gt new fre forget old fren de..realli don lyk tis type of ppl ah.

realli pek chey ah...wake up late at 2pm le tot gg to be late fer bs...in e end aaron haven wake up..haiz !! i frm 2.30pm call till nw ah...call his hp nv reply call his hse his maid nt willing to wake him up..wad de loh !!! bcoz of tis bs change to tml again..lolx

so nice the whether loh...if i noe i slp longer sia..nt enough slp...but luckily manage to wake up..tok to wenshan feel tt she abit dissappointed in aaron ah..haiz !!!
post again tonite bah...

jus come bek aft watching a soccer match...a veri gd match ply by spain but some uncle there jus spolit my mood..i kana smoke out loh..realli will die faster sia

thy nv consider other ppl health de loh...i sae if sometym still nvm ah...can tahan but is turn by turn de..den the smoke jus lyk to blow to my table...behind tt tym smoke come forward in fornt de come behind...more angry is the uncle in fornt of me de..smoke lyk nv smoke lyk tt blow out so much smoke den lyk tt nvm he jus smoke one aft another tt the whole place becam lyk u went genting lyk tt so many 'cloud'..

becoz of tis let me cannt concentrate on the match..no mood either den make keep tinking of her*..oso dunno why =s haiz!! hate the feeling of lonliness..tt stupid bro of my ah...dunno where he ran to oso..let me watch the match myself and coz too quiet tt tink too much...

still need to go bs and PM tml ah...tink i haf nt enough slp and tym le..blog again tonite bah...

ytd went celebrate my b'dae wif my cgm..gt realli fun and having fun the same time. realli paiseh lor..ytd tt aaron suan me fer my wish tt part...ya lar gt many tink i nv sae out, main lead down there le..u wan my life ah..but she oso didnt care de..i put all my wish in here liao...so u can noe wad i wan ah..without me saying it

Happy Birthday to Me !!!
grow old by one yr liao...haiz mus be more mature le...if nt ppl will start saying me le..plus he older u get the more responsibility u haf..so i will be more strssful le..haiz !!!

gt one of my best b'dae present ytd morning...in a match against NYP (church de)..i score a hat-trick which is 3 goals..wad more can i ask being a striker and score 3 goals..
i truely enjoy playing fer tis team le..althougt it is nt a veri strong team but i can play more games and playing in my fav. position which every soccer player wanted..nobody lyk to ply fer a team which can win but u sit on the bench all the time..it's frustating which i experience many times in the past and being critise fer everytink in the world fer nt playin well..in NP CHC soccer team make me feel encouage..i would nv being blame much fer losing a ball and i truely enjoy playing soccer wif them which is a veri impt factor to me...

gt veri few hrs of slp tis few weeks bcoz of world cup...once every 4 yr nia so mus catch it as it oso the best team in the world..jus bcoz of tis i got suan ytd by aaron when we chat in msn..sayin tt soccer is my life but fer me i soccer is nt everytink lor..if u wan me to giv up soccer fer sometink i can de..

Heard tt she gg m'sia tis week..which mean she wont celebrate my b'dae tis sun..so sad loh..btw i oso didnt expect much of her ah since she been doin tt fer so long le..oso donno wad to sae loh..jus lyk my skin above gt one sentence tt put ' if people like me just spoke to you...you would think we're annoying ' i tink tis realli describe my feeling and her toward me...coz all of ur know wad she does is nth den to siam me..haiz !! lyk tis song...i been waiting fer u so long le..but wad i gt is been avoid by u..gt realli sad by tis ah...tinkin tis few dae donno weather wan to go change cg ornt ah...feel lyk it but i cant coz oni fer her den do it coz i tink i haf veri gd relation wif other cgm lyk aaron,anna,susan,rachel,terence and ryan ah...

writing all this make me heartacde ah...donno why tears almost come out but no ah...i don tink i can cry anymore coz all dried up liao..lolx !! gt a call frm susan wad colour i lyk..gt news tt darius wan to buy a present fer me...shock tio ah !!! why my life all go opp. de...the one i siam de do so much fer me and the one i lyk de siam me till i am monster lyk tt..haiz !!! why lyk tt de...haiz !!! gt emo again...sry ah ur can close if ur don lyk it =s

Don blame me on getting emotion all wad..but i realli veri sad nw fer all the tink gg ard me :'(
if u noe me well u noe tt i am a veri emotional/sensitive person bah..even ppl sae smth abt me nt on purpose i will take it veri seriously..

althougt i am quite a gd fren to others but most of them take it fer granted and end up bully,despised or make fun of me..haiz!! which i cant stand it and broke off wif many of them..still wondering who fault isit?? =s

wonder why i haf to suffer so much..even thought nt lyk those in the africa or wad but i realli struggle alot wif myself..first i nv get anytink rite in my life bah,i can consider myself 'nerd' bah..which my fren oso sae me lost in touch wif the world..donno wad to do in which tym...cannt do well in anytink i wan to..

i remember gt one tym pas kong preach abt everybdy haf a weakness..i tink my is my emotion bah..or more specify 'LOVE'..mayb it is wad i lack since small bah..coz i gt one period of my time where i stay wif my aunt due to my dad could nt support us..getting scolding and kaning there most of the tym..need to hlp them wif there shop and study doin all those stuff without any plyin tym n nt enough slp...oso being show biased as my bro n cousin gt all those gd tinks wif me gettin nth..but i mus thank them fer me learn nt to be lyk them if i haf children..

even nw i don feel much care or concern frm my fren..frm all i close wif most of them jus add salt to my pain/hurt..but wad i desire most is mayb a relatioship bah..but nth gone the right way..coz i noe i nt handsome and nt rich and nt tall oso...oreadi fail in much of those quality in wad gal wan..i oni gt mayb personality bah..which ppl mus understand...i lyk her or i luv her but she tt kind of gal which i oso gt nth to sae..donno wad shld i do gettin hurt so many tym le..but i jus keep waitin wishing mayb a miracle will happen..but seem lyk nth progressing and she still siam away frm me..i noe tt she don lyk me but keepin a distance frm me jus add salt into my wound..

it would be a minor case if oni tt happen..i realli donno wad i gd at or speciallise in...i noe tt i don ply soccer well..which wad my fren told me..i jus to improve but oso no progress..in other areas of my life oso..i would nv success in anytink..even to sae in WE challenge althougt i create and score our goal but i noe tt if nt bcoz of winson i would nv get into the final...i nt the person tt ppl would remind me of of anytink bah...or shld i sae i'm useless nv get anytink rite in my life

sometime wonder why i am in tis earth to suffer so much..i could nt be born lor...in case ur donno..i am here coz jus bcoz my parent 'shotgun marriage'..my mum even sae tt if nt my dad's mum/my grandma noe it..she would haf aborted me..if realli tt is the case,i tink i would more relieve bah..getting realli tired of tis world..sometym realli tink tt if i die it would b better fer me..since i am a nobody..no one would remember me...i noe tt God is by my side but those hurt jus nv heal and it went deeper..jus lyk my b'dae which i spent most of it alone and it is nt happi b'dae but a sad one..

i donno hw many of ur are reading my blog but don blame me on gettin negative or wad..i oso try to look on the positive side before but it alway turn negative too..tink tt i nt worthy in everytink of my life bah...jus lyk my fav. anima 'naruto' the character naruto and garra which are loner which many ppl withdrawn frm them and dislike them as thy haf monster in them..i lyk them lacking wad a man needed most LOVE..

Change to a new tagboard and blogskin..hehe trying to change my blog coz veri bored at hm

feel lyk no ppl look at it much le..so can haf more emo tinky in it liao..lolx!!

ytd went to prayer meeting..actually feel ok de..budan went we go in to sit, knew tt she sitting beside my seat..i oreadi wan to change it wit aaron le.she ltr sae she wan to move inside budan my cgm insist tt she mus sit the place beside me..sayin tt ' she is the best b'dae gift fer me'..althougt is true ah..but i don forcing loh..getting sick of her le.nwadae i oso don wanna tok to her much or walk or sit near her..i will try myself to keep a distance frm her..she oso did tt to me..oso our distance is lyk more further away ah..

i jus to keep a distance frm her nt becuz is paiseh or wad loh..is to protect myself getting hurt again bah..don wanna being hurt again coz she hur me too much bah..althougt cant realli forget her but mayb in tis way relation would get better as tym go bah..tink tt i oni can keep on waiting loh..jus lyk tis song 'i believe'..i lyk those last few phrase..

' 在很久以后留在你身边的是我 , 陪着你的人是我 '

mayb she will noe it in the future bah...

Finally holidays le...but i felt smth missing =s mayb skl life still the best bah...at east gt smth i can spent my time on..

Tis week both cg meeting and svc impact me alot..i tink i learn alot frm it

wenshan preach abt fren in cg meeting..hw to find true fren and being a true fren..i tink my main weaknees is finding a true fren..everytym i treat a person as a true fren..i end up being betray or make fun of ( is worse tt make fun ) and make use of...haiz !!! oso gt nth to sae abt it le..but i can sae i am a veri good fren ah...coz of all the quality of being a true fren i haf it..lolx!! nt to sae tt i hao lian or wad..but i realli sort of haf it ah...oni the lauging part but cannt be hlep mah..i those quite quite type but i do lauge when wit my frens..

i oso learn frm wad pas kong preach abt tis week...the 7 needs fer human soul. of all the 7 needs..i oni tink tt make me feel empty shld be love bah...tis is the part where i feel empty everytym and where i gt hurt..i tink wad i thrist fer is love bah..where i nv found and nv get it before..haiz!!!

tis week aft svc went to bedok fellowship...tt anna sms me went we on our way bek hm..den thy all suan me loh..sae y thy sms me nt others sae till i blush siak..gt nth to sae abt it ah..haiz!! but wad i lyk is her loh...but nw i oso donno le ah..she everytym so cold to me..i oso gt nth to sae le..advice frm ppl is wait or giv up..nw myself oso donno wad to do le..so tired abt it le donno fer hw many yrs le loh..haiz!!

it world cup season le..gt to watch it liao...update when i free

tis week is common test week...so sian!! need to realli study it tis tym round...ytd gt IWD(internet web design) test..which is so easy loh MCQ question nia...tick till song ah...lolx!! todae gt econamic...oso quite easy tink i can pass bah...sae the truth i nv realli study tt much and nt paying much attendtion in classes...thank God to make tis paper easy loh fer me...haha


my clzmates todae oso tell me that i lyk veri steady de...test oso nt afraid lyk tt..haha
i tink tis is part of me bah..i don lyk to worry too much during exam or tink too much abt it...coz it no use to tink areadi and u will tend to forget coz too much stress...another is tt i noe tt if i am afraid i don do tink well so i mus go steady tt type de..fer everytink i do


read jerry blog...feel so touch by it...my name gt mention in it..which mean tt i mean smth in his heart..i nv tot before tt i can be an impt person in one people heart...cherish tis frenship wif him even more le...lolx!!! feel tt i and him realli gt much in common...both of us lyk soccer and oso we haf the same common weakness...women!!! haiz...


nth more to write le...still gt fri test to prepare..haiz!!!


12 dae to go to my b'dae...hooray!!!

Long tym nv update le...tis few daes veri tired coz of the emerge conference

everyday go out of hse 6+ in the morning and come bek hm 12+ in th nite...hardly gt enough slp and nearly fall sick again coz nt enough slp -.-"

but i tink it's worth it coz i learn alot frm it and gt some reward frm it..lolx

it is a fruitful conference indeed...and nw realli miss it sia..jus lyk wad pas. kong sae ytd 'u will wake up in the morning and sae i wanna go quene at expo hall 8'..wake in the morning todae and felt smth missing = s Oso donno why...haha

the best moment come frm sat...which i and winson win the x-box challenge competation..so shiok I lyk mad man running ard tt dae loh...in the morning of tt dae i went support ryan fer it soccer 11-a-side ah...he oso win it...in the afternoon support constance fer her talenttime dancing which she oso win...so many ppl lor frm my cg...so good!!!heheh

nt oni tt ah...we oso haf special guests to perform fer us...fri we gt kelly poon,junyang and taufik and our veri own Sun on sat and sundae wit milk oso come..lol

we oso learn frm the preach of pas. kong to be in the world but nt of the world..frm mainly the chapter of daniel...realli is a wonderful emerge conference...realli excited fer nxt yr emerge oso liao...lol

heard tis song i believe in talenttime...althougt i knew tis song long ago but nv realli listen..but tt tym took notice of it..found frm the lyrics veri touching lyk wad happen to me lyk tt...so i can oni continue to believe ah..lol

nw aft emerge le..need to concentrate on study coz exam coming -.-"

aft tt holidae le...wish it com faster..skl nwadae getting bored..and finally fer those who read it my b'dae coming ah...get ur present realli ah...don act act donno hor..lol